Motivation
I admit it. There's no getting around the fact that I have a strong tendency to become lazy.
Sometimes I get it into my mind, unconsciously of course, that I don't feel like I can finish up a project. Sometimes it's as if I lack that certain force that just pushes you along, an unnamed something that propels you and drives you and gives you the energy you need to put that period at the end of the paragraph.
Such is how I feel these days.
Perhaps it's the heat of the oncoming summer sapping my energy. I'm sure that my badly maladjusted body clock, manifested by my predilection to sleep late and wake up for work despite having far too short of the six-to-seven hours of total rest that I need, is also a factor. I know that sometimes having too much in front of me depresses my internal energy level.
Instead of giving me that boost that a challenge should, more often than not my immediate reaction is to retreat a little bit and conserve effort and energy.
I need to develop a new facet to my personality. I need to harness the aggression and energetic forcefulness that I know I can summon only, it seems, when my emotions and passions are stirred. When I feel angry, or if I feel competitive, that's when I most feel that energy I know I can have.
The trick, perhaps, is to be able to find a way to benevolently deceive my mind into willfully going into that aroused psychological state as when I am angry or feeling competitive. Alas, that is always the most challenging part for me: I have always seemed to lack that ability to properly harness and control the swirl of emotion and passion that is the wellspring of that energy I seek.
This is a cause most worthy of meditation.
:: Posted by txtmstrjoe AT 7/16/2008 03:14:47 AM
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